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My mother-in-law still lives. Today she is going to be transferred to a nursing home for rehabilitation.

Big change from expecting her to be dead by the fifteenth.

Time will now tell whether or not she can build back her strength to be able to stay at her own place. The people at the hospice call her a ‘79 year old miracle baby’.

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Remember that I had mentioned feeling like a vulture in my previous article?

Some of the things that have happened kind of give me that feeling. She has decided to give some of her stuff away before she dies so that she can decide who gets specific things. She wanted me to have her beading supplies since she knows that I have made many things from beads in the past before.

I wish that this wasn’t needed. I would rather have her, alive and healthy. As it is, time is the only thing ahead right now. She is ready to leave, and is looking forward to seeing family members that have gone ahead of her. A lot of family members have been calling her and talked to her about places and people. I am glad that they called, the time to talk to her is now, before she is gone.

The one thing among many that helps us to let go of her is that she knows Jesus. The other main thing is that she won’t hurt any longer.

It still hurts us, but soon she won’t hurt any longer.

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With all that has been going on, I am worn down.

If there was a multivitamin that could give me the energy, stop the congestion in my chest, and give me back feeling in my face - I WOULD TAKE IT, in a heart beat.

At times, I feel like I am stuck in a waiting game, waiting for mom to die. Other times, I feel almost like a vulture. She is at peace with the thought of leaving, I am not sure that I am yet.

At least at the hospice, she is taken care of and does not feel any pain from her condition. Time, right now, seems to be the main enemy.

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The breach in the family has been mended.

My husband went into talk to his brother, I stayed out in the van. They talked and the misunderstanding was talked about and things were mended.

At this time, knowing the grief to come (it has been edging in anyway), it is very important that there be no bad thoughts or feelings between all family members.

My husband and his brother were raised together and each is their own person with their own ways. I am very glad that things have been straightened out. Thank God for His mercy.

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As I sit here an type on my keyboard…it hurts.

I realize that she will not be here too much longer. They only put you into hospice when the hospital is unable to improve you condition any more. At time when I think about it it feels as if band saw blades are cutting me in half.

I try not to let my feelings show too much as I do not want to make my husband hurt more than he already is. At times I find myself crying and trying to be silent. I know that she will not feel any pain in Heaven. I still will miss her greatly.

There were times that she could be imprudent or difficult. She is after all a human being. We have for a long time proved that humans can be weird. Animals are actually not as weird as we are. I guess that all of this is just part of the human condition after all.

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We have checked out the hospice care that mom is getting and she is happy and not in pain.

At first we were worried about the cost, but Medicare is covering it completely. I would call that nice. She says that she is ready and at peace with what is happening. She is ppaying an incredible s price for not taking care of her diabetes.

It makes me want to be more careful with my blood sugar since I am not into pain and suffering. This type of thing makes you think.

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My husband and I are finding out some things about hospice care.

His mother is dying because of her kidney and heart troubles. She knows Jesus, so we have peace about where she will go. We are learning how to let go of her, though. She has been living with a lot of pain and is at peace with her future passing.

I am not sure how many people can say that. I just know that I will miss her. She is my MOTHER-IN-LAW, but she has love and will be missed.

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Mesothelioma is a serious word that denotes a very serious condition.

I have Diabetes, Osteoarthritis, Obesity, Sleep Apnea, and know of other things that could happen. Mesothelioma is not something to be taken lightly. If you need help, only prof3essional help will do.

So far, I do not know of someone personally who has this. I have friends and family who have experiences colon cancer, throat cancer, pneumonia, heart failure and other stuff. So far most of them have survived. If you go to the link that I put in the top of my article, there is information that you can read.

Most important of all, talk to your doctor.

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I have noticed that when my brother-in-law does his videos, he uses a green screen. How many people have a green study in their home strictly for making videos?

His have been pretty cool. Tinfoil Chef.com has a lot of those videos on it. Sometimes he writes about politics, sometimes he writes about his fight to lose weight. He is doing pretty good so far. A sense of humor, some intelligence, and a good imagination can work wonders. When it comes to handicrafts, I can have imagination. Electronics seem to bumfuzzle me sometimes.

BUMFUZZLE - made up word meaning that I am still more analog than digital, and I get confused.

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My brother-in-law in Arkansas needs cameras to do his vlogging.

He has a Facebook Channel called The Tin Foil Chef. He has also done some diary work on his weight loss fight. He has mentioned the need for a camer that will have finer pixel ratios to get better pictures.

I am happy just to have help when he helps me to put a picture on my blog.

I wish that I was more digital. Then I might understand what he is talking about, and might actually be able to insert pictures myself. Thank God for brothers.

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